CRAZY weekend & NEW JOB!! Yay!!

SO, I know it is almost Friday again... but I needed to update with new pictures and a little on my life...

So we had a CRAZYYYY weekend... But it was SO much fun!

Friday night we went out and saw my brother's band play.. THEY ROCK... they have really been getting busy around here!! They have gigs every weekend.. SO we went out and saw them.. We didn't stay out too late because I had a busy day ahead of me! But here is a pic from going out.. I am on the left, my brother's girlfriend Courtney is in the center, and my favorite aunt "Weezie" is on the right.. and we accidentally cut our friend Abbey out... Ooops!!!!

Then SATURDAY... wow what a day... So I had a Bridal Shower to go to..it was a very pretty shower.. I forgot my camera, so no pics for that...

Then I had a Graduation Party..my best friend, Anna, from high school, well her brother Nick graduated.. so that was cool...

THEN!!! We had the Bachelorette Party!! It was awesome.. We went to Shadowbox Cabaret, which is like a comedy skit club.. then we just went out to one bar afterwards... But we had a DD and had a really good time!! Here are some shots from that!... Okay SO I had a little too much to drink... BUT we were all on our best behavior! :)

And then on Sunday my littlest sister GRADUATED from William V. Fisher Catholic High School!!!!! I am SO proud of her!! She is my little big sister, as I call her. :) I love her so much and can't wait to see where God takes her down the crazy road of life... CONGRATS ALL 2009 GRADUATES!! Here are some shots from that!

OH & the greatest news yet... I GOT A NEW JOB! I START MONDAY, JUNE 22!!! YAY!! My workplace now is just not where I want to be at all... I am just happy that hard work and perseverance pays off!! Not to mention it is going to be better pay...and 2 miles from my house!! Woop Woop!

So now this coming up weekend we have her Graduation Party... I have been busy all week getting stuff done for her party, so I am sure at some point next week I will upload with pictures from that...

This one is for my baby sister :)

I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow,

And each road leads you where you want to go,

And if you're faced with a choice,

and you have to choose,

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed,

I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,

If it's cold outside,

show the world the warmth of your smile,

More then anything,

more then anything,

My wish, for you,

is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more then you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you,

and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back,

but ya never forget,

All the ones who love you,

in the place you left,

I hope you always forgive,

and you never regret,

And you help somebody every chance you get,

Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,

And you always give more then you take.

Oh More then anything,

Yeah, and more then anything,

My wish, for you,

Is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more then you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you,

and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

Reading a good book!

So I am reading an amazing book... It is about a man who has been diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer, and about his last lecture he will ever give, and how he has to leave a legacy for his three young children so they remember their dad...If your in need of a good book, I HIGHLY recommend it :)

One month ago today...

So we went to the cabin again this weekend. We just needed it. My parents and our cousins went with us.. It was awesome..

It has been hard. Today is exactly a month since I went into the hospital and got the saddest news of my ENTIRE life. It seems like it was just yesterday. It has made today super hard. I can't help but think I should be THAT much closer to seeing my baby. I mean in a way I am that much closer, because I will eventually see it in heaven.. but I should have been 1 month closer to having him or her in my arms. I miss it. I miss the feeling of just knowing I was providing a safe haven for a perfect little being. It's so hard. Noone understands except the people who have gone through something like this, and forever I will be grateful to everyone who has helped me through everything.

So I had a follow up appointment on Friday. Dr. Parker is an amazing doctor. He is just so great not only as a Doctor but just as a human being too. He definately knows how to comfort people in these times of need. So I went in for another internal U/S. As of today it has officially been 4 weeks since I had the shots of methotrexate, so on Friday just a couple days short of 4 weeks... Anyways, the mass in my fallopian tube, which was my baby, has increased in size. I also now have a mass in my uterus which he thinks is just blood. CRAZY. He seemed kind of dumbfounded by it. My HCG levels are now in the 300's, so he says that they are decreasing perfectly and there is no reason to be concerned. He actually doesn't want to see me for an U/S until August 28th.. Kind of scares me since the mass grew, but I know he is an awesome doctor so I should just trust his opinion. In the meantime, he said if I have any excruciating pain at all I need to go to the hospital... STAT... He also said that we should wait 3-6 months to try again.. which made me sad because I was thinking we already had a month behind us.. Who knows.. Matt and I have decided that we are going to be careful but come August no matter what it is baby making time :)

Well I am going to cut this short...I have tons more to talk about but I am just kind of sad so I will update later! xoxox

"God won't make a mountain I can't climb..."- Not sure who wrote this, but I like it :)